Back To School Freak Out

Holy crap. It is upon me. I left work eight years ago to raise my children until they were both in school full time. Well, that happens next week. My baby starts 1st grade and the oldest will be in 3rd. How can this be? 

It is really the first 'letting go' in our family. They no longer need me for an entire day, and I know there is going to be a huuuuge hole in my life. My heart goes out to you moms out there sending your child off to college for the first time. I cannot imagine how that must feel. 
Did anyone else cry in Toy Store 3 when Andy was packing up his beloved toys to go to college? We all sobbed. My sister saw this movie with her family. She said both her, her husband and their 17 year old daughter were bawling at this scene, as that will be them next summer (gasp!).
Scott jokes with me that it is time for my second lucrative career. What do I want to do? How will we handle after school day care? Can I do a desk job after 8 years gone?
I am freaking out. 
I 'interviewed' my friend Keri whose littlest started full day a few weeks ago. She said that first day was fine, doing laundry and grocery shopping. That next day, she said it really hit her and she just 'cocooned'.
At least we can go through this together.
Does it get easier? Is it always so hard to let go? I'm not ready!!!!


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  • Dylan is only 3 and I was blubbering like an idiot during that scene in Toy Story 3! I cannot even IMAGINE what a mess I'll be when he starts school full time or goes off to college. Hang in there---I hear it takes a little getting used to, but then you REALLY start enjoying your free time!

  • Thank you Khadine, it happens before you know it. I have a feeling I will cry and laugh and feel sad and act like a maniac that first day.

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