This post is my contribution to this month's ChicagoNow's Blogapalooz-Hour. The mission of this project is for all participating ChicagoNow bloggers to write on a single random assigned topic. The catch though, is that we only have one hour to learn what the topic is, write about it, and publish our post. The topic for this session is to "write about something you learned or experienced since you woke up this morning." Here is my submission:
Like everyday, I headed off to work this morning hoping to make a difference in the world. In theory, I believe that every day should be spent learning something new and trying to make the world a better place. Realistically, I end most days by just thanking God that today was not the day I turned into a serial killer. I am so thankful that I spent one more day on the sane(ish) side of society.
The reason for my gratefulness of staying sane is that everyday I lose more and more faith in humanity. Today, while listening to people talk about how other people behave, I realized that for some reason, I just find people annoying.
This was surprising to me considering that I honestly consider myself a people person. I like to meet new people, and I love going to social events. These two things combined led me to believe that I felt that people were awesome.
However, after listening to how people interact, and how they truly feel about other people when they are not in the room, I am beginning to think that most people are just insecure beings who try to bring others down to make themselves feel good.
I do not understand this behavior, though I think I finally did learn something from it.
You see, prior to today, I have always felt that most things people say are meant to educate those listening (yes, even if they were negative things). I have always listened and tried to learn from what was being said so that I could figure out a way to make it positive. I had very good role models in my life growing up, and I was taught to find the positive in any situation.
Unfortunately, I think sometimes people are not really saying things to educate us or even to engage us in a meaningful conversation. They are saying things to make themselves look better.
Do they really think the person they are talking about is stupid, ugly, etc? Probably. However, the reality is that the person calling someone else stupid is just insecure, and instead of working on their own behavior, they are going to get hostile towards someone else.
Regardless, while overhearing said conversations today, I thought to myself, "I really wish I could live on a deserted island away from people."
I think, and it sort of relates to a post I wrote last week about everybody wanting to a victim, that people just like to point out insecurities and flaws in others so they do not have to turn around and look at themselves.
Even sadder than people being self ignorant, is that we cannot break somebody from this habit. They have built their entire reputation on degrading everybody else because they feel it makes them look all high and powerful.
So, instead of working to fix people, I think it would be easier to just live on a deserted island. I know my issues, and I can live with them. It is other people's issues I have a problem with.
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