I cannot believe that today is December 1st. Normally by the time December starts, I already have my Christmas Tree, Village, and lights up. Not this year though.
It is not that I am running behind schedule or anything. Matter-of-fact, none of my Christmas stuff is up because I am not putting it up this year.
I have instead made a decision to let Christmas 2012 pass with very little fan fair from myself.
For the last several years, Christmas has just not been the same. I think it is mostly due to the fact that most of my traditions got disrupted due to loss of friends and moving. Additionally, a blow of unemployment late this year has set me back financially and left me playing catch-up on bills.
To add even more insult to injury, my move into the City of Chicago has been delayed more times than Cher's retirement. The constant delay of moving just makes me feel like I have shelter, but not a place that feels like home.
It if for those reasons that instead of stretching myself out beyond my means and suffering through another crappy holiday, I have decided to set this one out.
I think maybe it will help with my Holiday spirit. To let Christmas pass a year without being all excited about it, may help me reconnect to the joy of Christmas next year.
I am hoping that maybe by this time next year, I will be in a better place and can actually enjoy the holiday in a home.
However, for this year, December is just another month. December 25th will be just another day.
Do not expect a present, a card, or any festive greeting. Expect maybe a smile, but not much more than at.
In fact, I am working Christmas Eve, and plan on spending Christmas Day in the theater. That is the extent of my Holiday plans.
So, if you see me out about, feel free to wish me a Happy Tuesday, or whatever day it is, but do not be surprised if you wish me a Merry Christmas, and I reply "Bah, humbug."