At the age of 32, for the first time in my adult life, I have lost someone dear to me.
My Aunt Laurie lost her battle with cancer at Midnight last night. I know Heaven is in celebration today of getting a wonderful woman and a fabulous chef in their company.
I am taking the day to remember growing up around her. She was always cooking. No matter what else was going on, she had something in the oven or on the stove.
She is still, to this day, the only woman who has served me perfect hashbrowns. She mastered them in my eyes. One thin layer, dark brown, and not too greasy. Perfection every time she did it. It was like a magic trick to me. I have no clue how she made them, but they were always just the best.
She is also one of the only family members that had positive things to say about everyone. I was talking to my Mother last night about her sister, and we agreed that she was just always happy. No matter what life handed her, she took it in stride and with a smile on her face.
Of course after I became an adult, I did not keep in touch as much as I should have. I think most people lose touch after a while just because of time and distance. Fortunately, Facebook recently allowed us to have a couple of good chats and too reconnect. Chats that I will cherish forever.
However, even with the good memories, I know that cancer took my Aunt away way to early. It is very hard to lose someone so young and with so many who depend on her. My Aunt, 49, leaves behind 8 children.
As I said at the beginning of this post, it seems harder because I do not know the proper emotions to feel. I'm happy she is not suffering anymore, sad she is no longer with us, and feel bad that I was not able to talk to her during her final days. Of course I know there was nothing I could have done to make her better, but I still feel sad that I could not say my final goodbyes.
I end this post with a love for my Aunt and a mighty F-U to cancer. Cancer really does suck. Even more so when you are directly affected by it. A lesson that I feel fortunate to have learned a lot later than other people. A lesson I hope to not have to go through again.