Saying goodbye: A "Love" Letter to My Ovaries

Saying goodbye: A "Love" Letter to My Ovaries

It is not fun being a woman at times. It is worse when I had to deal with pain caused by my ovaries. During majority of my life, I have had to fight a battle with endometriosis - an autoimmune disorder which causes a development of uterine-lining tissue outside the uterus. A woman's ovaries is the source of estrogen in the body.  The little endometrial cells feed off of the estrogen and grow. Estrogen causes the pain to be increasingly worse.  It causes a lot of pain for me especially around the time of my menstrual cycle.  Every month, I would dread my "time of the month." My family would know more when it would be arriving before I would because of my behavior would change due to my hormones. About 10 years ago, after having two kids, I finally made the decision to end most of the pain by having a hysterectomy, but had to leave my ovaries because of my young age.  Things settled down a bit for the first 5 years, but the pain has slowly returned during the last 5 years. I have battled cysts, the bloating, adhesions,  and pain more and more until everything finally hit a peak this past week.

Since I knew that things were not getting better with endometriosis symptoms, I finally made the decision to pull the plug on my ovaries and give them their official eviction notice.  Enough is enough!!  I was given two choices today: a medication to put me into a "temporary menopause" or removal of the ovaries.  After reading the information on the medication, I saw that there were more side effects for the medications compared to the after effects from the surgery aka early menopause.  The decision was very easy to make.  Out goes the ovaries!!  Personally, I did not want to have to worry about anymore cysts developing in the future and bursting in my pelvic region sending me in a crap load of pain. I also have found that women with endometriosis have a higher risk for ovarian cancer and I do not want to worry about dealing with that. Hell f*** no!

Here's my little "love" letter to my ovaries before I have them removed from my body:

Dear Ladies:

You have been a part of my life for a long time. In fact, you have been with me for all of my life. There have been some good times.  But there have been a lot of bad times.  With the estrogen that you provide me, you have also given me a lot of "little presents" along the way.  There have been times that just want to rip both of you out myself. There have been months where the pain that you bring me has caused me to be in so much pain that I would crawl on all fours. You have made my life at times difficult.  You did not seem to want to cooperate when I attempted to get pregnant and we had to give you a kick start with some Clomid. You seemed to develop more cysts than viable ovulation lately and had not made my life easy.

I am about to say goodbye to both of you. I have had a long run with both of you, but all good things have to come to an end. 25 years of dealing with endometriosis has been too long. I have had enough!

Good riddens!

Sincerely,

Denise

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